||[Nov. 12th, 2008|07:30 pm]
Regina Spektor is amazing and I wish to be her. |
Can anybody tell me why it seems like I have so many struggs, all the time? I have looked back on many of my journal entries, and they're so fucking ANGSTY! why? i have a good life for the most part. I come across as so hilariously whiney. Not Ok.
Everyone (Except my MOTHER for some reason) tells me not to be friends with Gared, but he's really trying. He's being really nice and I want to be his friend again. I just hope he doesn't try anything now that we're broken up. If he did, i might get mad at him. Then again, if he did, I could totally have power and say 'nope.' or 'sure, but it means nothing. You don't mean anything to me and we're not getting back together.'
As long as i dont lull myself into a false sense of security, and imagine there are feelings between us,i'll be fine. I wouldn't get back together with him anyway :P
I just realized that black hair acts like insta-makeup on me. It brings out all my features!